laughter and tears

A song that made me cry today it so beautiful.
And life is both laughter and tears. Like a rollercoaster, we just to have hang in there and learn to live life to the fullest.

Heavy on my heart - Anastacia

El condor pasa

Higher - Erik Grönwall

I am

Enjoy the moment

Today I saw the small miracle of life.
Just being satisfied with enjoying the moment.
We went with our children to a place called the Indianhill.
My children were riding a sledge and we had a very nice time.
They are so happy when it´s snow outside, making angels in the snow and just tumble around in the snow.
I wish I could go back in time and be a child once more ;-)
Maybe we can, we just has to focus on this moment *smile*

Love Jessica

Miracle ?

So much strange things has happened in my life recently that I´m conviced that miracle is for real.

I dreamt a dream about my fiance was in a car accident.
I didn´t know how to tell him.
I didn´t want him to be scared so I just told him that I dreamt about a car accident.
I said a prayer that he would be alright and maybe that worked ;-)

And one weak later he almost ended up in a car accident, it was just seconds away.

So now I will trust my dreams even though they scare me sometimes.
It´s a gift even though I don´t think so sometimes, I don´t understand why sometimes.

Love Jessica

A wonderful story from Paulo Coelhos blog

The story of the pencil

source: “Like the Flowing River” by Paulo Coelho

A boy was watching his grandmother write a letter. At one point he asked:

‘Are you writing a story about what we’ve done? Is it a story about me?’
His grandmother stopped writing her letter and said to her grandson:
I am writing about you, actually, but more important than the words is the pencil I’m using. I hope you will be like this pencil when you grow up.’

Intrigued, the boy looked at the pencil. It didn’t seem very special.
‘But it’s just like any other pencil I’ve ever seen!’

‘That depends on how you look at things. It has five qualities which, if you manage to hang on them, will make you a person who is always at peace with the world.’

‘First quality: you are capable of great things, but you must never forget that there is a hand guiding your steps. We call that hand God, and He always guides us according to His will.’
‘Second quality: now and then, I have to stop writing and use a sharpner. That makes the pencil suffer a little, but afterwards, he’s much sharper. So you, too, must learn to bear certain pains and sorrows, because they will make you a better person.
‘Third quality: the pencil always allows us to use an eraser to rub out any mistakes. This means that correcting something we did is not necessarily a bad thing; it helps to keep us on the road to justice.’
‘Fourth quality: what really matters in a pencil is not its wooden exterior, but the graphite inside. So always pay attention to what is happening inside you.’
‘Finally, the pencil’s fifth quality: it always leaves a mark. in just the same way, you should know that everything you do in life will leave a mark, so try to be conscious of that in your every action’

We weren´t born to follow

On this day of your life, Jessica, I believe God wants you to know...

. ..that everything is perfect Right Here, Right Now. And

Right Here Right Now is all there is.

Forget about the past. It does not exist, except in your

memory. Drop it. And stop worrying about how you're

going to get through tomorrow. Life is going on Right

Here, Right Now -- pay attention to that and all will

be well.

Embrace the present moment with gratefulness and

wonder, and you will turn it into whatever you have

been waiting for.

Gloria

A friend send me this link :

On this day of your life, Jessica, I believe God wants you to know...

. .that they who are all things to their neighbors cease to

be anything to themselves.

Norman Douglas said that, and he was right. So do not

worry about "what the neighbors think." Worry only

about whether you are being true to yourself.

Think, act, and speak today from the place of your

highest truth. About all things. Including your

relationship, your life work, your thoughts and your

choices.

It is time that you came out of hiding on some things,

don't you agree?

so what if it hurts me

I need you now !!!

What about now

The things we owe

This quote gave me hope today:

On this day, God wants you to know...

... that you have to pass through a dark night of the soul. Everyone does, including you.
A time comes when what you have always believed is true melts away underneath you.
When you cast in doubt even the most obvious, the most simple.
When it seems that dark night is all around, and you are all alone.
Take heart, this journey through abyss is the final barrier before your emergence into the heavenly light of a new synthesis of your being.
God is waiting for you on the other side.

Behind these hazeleyes

What do I do when I feel trapped in a corner?

Whatever I do in this situation is hurting someone.

I don´t want anyone to hurt, but I can´t go on living a life where I do not listen to my heart.

I want to be accpeted for who I am.

I don´t want to play a role of someone else to satisfie another person.

I hope for a miracle in this situation.

Love and light
Jessica

On this day of your life, Jessica, I believe God wants you to know...

. .that just when it looks like life is falling apart, it may

be falling together for the first time.

I have learned to trust the process of life, and not so

much the outcome. Destinations have not nearly as

much value as journeys.

So maybe you should let things fall apart at this

juncture if that's what's happening. Don't hang on so

tenaciously. The nice thing about things falling apart is

that you can pick up only the pieces that you want...

...and you know exactly why I told you this today...

hope once again

I begin to have hope once again that everything is going to be OK in the end. I have had a hard time but I can now see the light in the tunnel. But it feels it too good to be true somehow. But I still hope for a miracle it´s kind of shaky right now.
I have recently started to work with help from a goverment project. Not much money, but I can test my dreamjob which is doing reiki and massage and help people as I myself have been helped in different ways.
This work is going to last until march and after that I will see if I can open up my own buisness.
Otherwise I have to find another work on part time so I still can continue my dream.
I will not give up !!!

We can make a difference in someone elses life even if we don´t realize it sometimes.

Take care !!!

Love Jessica

I didn´t know my own strenght

A friend of my send me this video and this is how I feel right know. Like the bird in a cage ready to fly for the first time.

I didn´t know my own strenght




Love Jessica

Nickelback/ If today was your last day