Thoughts of today 2010.02.23 tuesday

I have felt so good about myself recently.

Things are finaly moving or am I moving?
Maybe both :-)

The last year has been one of the toughest for me in many many years.
Maybe I will explain one day, it´s kind of complicated.

For one thing I have changed my career from networkengineer to work with reiki & massage and spirituality.

I have looked deep into myself and found out what my heart wants and I´m taking step by step to achieve it.

I have started with doing reiki & massage in a goverment project at my friends company,
and soon I will also start my own buisness and stand on my two own feats.

It´s so exciting and fun.

Also been starting working with spirituality in different ways.
So much is happening right know and it feels great :-)

At first I thought I was a little crazy and felt very alone, because in Sweden it is not so common to be working with spirituality but I hope that will change :-)

Now I have found several friends that are in the same way, and it is so much fun to discuss things and work together.
So what if some think I´m crazy, I will not care about thoose people, just focus on what I need to do.

I just want to be the authentic me :-)

Now it´s also my turn to help other find the direction out of the abyss.

Another thing I love is to read and also write, who knows some today maybe I publish something, but for now it has to grow for a while :-)

Have a wonderful day :-)

A wonderful Cinderella story

Never give up your dream :-)

I am

A friend send me this link :

This quote gave me hope today:

On this day, God wants you to know...

... that you have to pass through a dark night of the soul. Everyone does, including you.
A time comes when what you have always believed is true melts away underneath you.
When you cast in doubt even the most obvious, the most simple.
When it seems that dark night is all around, and you are all alone.
Take heart, this journey through abyss is the final barrier before your emergence into the heavenly light of a new synthesis of your being.
God is waiting for you on the other side.

What do I do when I feel trapped in a corner?

Whatever I do in this situation is hurting someone.

I don´t want anyone to hurt, but I can´t go on living a life where I do not listen to my heart.

I want to be accpeted for who I am.

I don´t want to play a role of someone else to satisfie another person.

I hope for a miracle in this situation.

Love and light
Jessica

On this day of your life, Jessica, I believe God wants you to know...

. .that just when it looks like life is falling apart, it may

be falling together for the first time.

I have learned to trust the process of life, and not so

much the outcome. Destinations have not nearly as

much value as journeys.

So maybe you should let things fall apart at this

juncture if that's what's happening. Don't hang on so

tenaciously. The nice thing about things falling apart is

that you can pick up only the pieces that you want...

...and you know exactly why I told you this today...

hope once again

I begin to have hope once again that everything is going to be OK in the end. I have had a hard time but I can now see the light in the tunnel. But it feels it too good to be true somehow. But I still hope for a miracle it´s kind of shaky right now.
I have recently started to work with help from a goverment project. Not much money, but I can test my dreamjob which is doing reiki and massage and help people as I myself have been helped in different ways.
This work is going to last until march and after that I will see if I can open up my own buisness.
Otherwise I have to find another work on part time so I still can continue my dream.
I will not give up !!!

We can make a difference in someone elses life even if we don´t realize it sometimes.

Take care !!!

Love Jessica

I didn´t know my own strenght

A friend of my send me this video and this is how I feel right know. Like the bird in a cage ready to fly for the first time.

I didn´t know my own strenght




Love Jessica

Return to life

Today is a big day in my life.
I have been very down lately because I have felt trapped by circumstances that I couldn´t do anything about.
But now the luck has returned, it´s a miracle.

I can only say Halleluja !!!!

An awakening day

Today was a really awakening day for me !!
I have thought for a while now that I cannot do anything and that I´m useless in several ways.
But today I helped a friend that are going through a divorce and she was so thankful that I could help her and we talked about stuff that really matters.
And she encouraged me to start my buisness right away, she said that I can help a lot of people, no doubt about it.I really needed to hear that right now when my self esteem was low.

It´s so strange that we can be both strong and weak at the same time.We really need to help each other in this world, reach out a hand to help our neigbour.We all need a hand when we are in the dark to be able to reach the light.
We are all ONE !!!

My path

How hard it is to follow your heart when the people closest to you dont agree with your path. They want you to take the safe path, but I can´t go on on the safe path anymore, it will cost to much.
My soul will slowly die if I continue on the safe path.
So I will pray to God and the angels to help me on my "new" path.
And I will remember that it always look darkest before dawn.
From now on I have to put my trust in faith and continue.

Song of today

Unwritten - Natasha Bedingfield

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GGlvZ3uYRB0

Just some reflections

I´m so tired right know.
I need to rest and feel which path I need to go now.
Some people around me try to make me abandon my true path.
But I have decide I need to walk it even if some disagree and think I´m crazy.
They can think what they want, it most about themself, that they don´t have the courage to walk the narrowest path.
It´s my life and I need to follow my heart step by step, and go on even when I fall.
Otherwise my soul is going to be a zombie and that I can´t let happen.

Love and hugs from Jessica

Song of today

One of my favorite .....
A million candles burning - Martin Stenmarck

Who am I?

Who am I ?

I am who I am.

And we all have the light within to share with each ohter.
So let the light come in from both inside (inside and outside).
Let it flow.
Let others light come into you, and also share your light, letting other people share your light.

We are all ONE and connected.

I have been spending a lot of time in silence lately in the hospital.I have had time to figure out what I want in life.
What is my life mission ?
I have thought that it all starts with me.
I am all my feelings, sad, happy, angry, humble, lost, at the right place and so on.

All I can do is my best according to my knowledge and sometimes I get lost and need a compass and a tiny light to see where I put my feet.
Also I need my friends showing me a peace of the puzzle so we all can see clearer what we need to do.
Or is it so that I am at the right place all the time?
Maybe I needed to go thrue all theese experiences to become who I am today ??

Many questions I have.

Love Jessica

picture of the day

Fly on the wings on love

Songs of today

Sarah Dawn Finer - I moving on
I can´t say anymore ... it made me cry floods of tears!!!

This song sais a lot :-)

This song sais a lot :-)

Love Jessica