Thoughts of today 2010.02.28

What if we feel we had enough challenges for a while?
I need a little rest again.
I hope I will found this again in the forest and through meditation.

I always feel guilty when I do nothing, so for me doing nothing is a big challenge.

I always feel I could do this or that, but sometimes we just need to reflect for a while.

Striving for balance is one of my main targets right now.
To have patience to wait and rest (that I learned this last year) and then know when to go even if other disagrees.

We all have challenges in our life, but it would be boring without them and we shouldn´t learn anything either if everything was a piece of cake.

So right now I´m just listening to my heart was is the best for me even if other try to stop me or disagree.

I know there is no other way, to be happy again.

Transformation it´s a process

Through life I have been changing many times not at least in my profession.

At first I was an au-pair in USA, then I was working as a travelsalesman,
after that I became a networkeningeer and now I have start working as a masseuer and with reiki and with spirituality.

I feel like a chameleon :-)

I don´t regret anything of it.
My travel thrue life has taken me too many places and meet so many different people.

I had a real crises last year for many reasons but now I have start moving again toward my new dreams.

And also I have met wonderful people helping me on my way to recovery, each person has bringed me blessings in their own way.

I think everything I have been thrue in life has learned me something and even the most dark moments has learned me something and number one is:
*Don´t give up hope, there are always a new sunrise behind the corner even though we have to struggle to reach it.

And when the day comes when I´m going to die, I hope I can look back at my life and be proud of myself that I did my best.

I´m looking forward to what life can bring me next :-)

I just keep on walking and walk around the rocks in my path, our faith can move mountains.

Love and humbleness Jessica

Thoughts 2010.02.24

Saved by the bell (a miracle)

Lately everyhting seems to going my way ... it´s a miracle :-)

I can´t believe it almost, it´s to good to be true.

The last year everything went donwhill for several reasons (both private and work).
Now slowly everything is going better and better.

Not long ago I didn´t know what to do, I was almost turning bankrupt and without a job.
I just couldn´t go back to my "old" work, it made me sick to be there.

I knew I had to follow my heart otherwise my soul would slowly die, I just needed to listen to my heart very carefully.

But with a friends help and the goverment I´m on the right track again.

It ´s like you are swimming in the wrong aquarium, you feel trapped and you don´t know how you can switch it, you need some help to move to the ocean :-)

I was so depressed and sad, and I prayed and the answer was:
*Not to worry, he only tested my faith (very funny *LOL*)
*Just believe in miracles and they will happen.
*Forgive yourself for the mistakes you done, an also forgive thoose who hurt you.
*And also I made a promise but that is a secret for now ;-)

And there are also questions God (or the Source or whoever it is) will not answer he/she just smile back at me, and some I don´t understand yet.
But I hope I will understand soon or maybe I just have to understand that God work in mysterious ways.

Some people around me has believed I´m crazy when I say that I talk to God, they was afraid that I was nuts.
Maybe I should not have told them, could have saved me a lot of trouble.

The funny thing is they say they believe in God (or do they really???).
Now they has accepted it, but can´t understand it.
Here in Sweden many think you are crazy if you talk to God, so let them think so I don´t care anymore.

I also took courage and told the goverment about my situation and they helped me thank God.
So now I´m on my way back to recovery again.

Doing what I love: reiki and massage and spiritual work :-)
I just cross my fingers and hope it can stay so for a while so I can get back on my feet totaly again.

But for now I´m just so happy and feel blessed that a solution came along.

Still there are issues to solve, but I´m sure the stronger I get this will be solved somehow.

Love Jessica

Thoughts of today 2010.02.23 tuesday

I have felt so good about myself recently.

Things are finaly moving or am I moving?
Maybe both :-)

The last year has been one of the toughest for me in many many years.
Maybe I will explain one day, it´s kind of complicated.

For one thing I have changed my career from networkengineer to work with reiki & massage and spirituality.

I have looked deep into myself and found out what my heart wants and I´m taking step by step to achieve it.

I have started with doing reiki & massage in a goverment project at my friends company,
and soon I will also start my own buisness and stand on my two own feats.

It´s so exciting and fun.

Also been starting working with spirituality in different ways.
So much is happening right know and it feels great :-)

At first I thought I was a little crazy and felt very alone, because in Sweden it is not so common to be working with spirituality but I hope that will change :-)

Now I have found several friends that are in the same way, and it is so much fun to discuss things and work together.
So what if some think I´m crazy, I will not care about thoose people, just focus on what I need to do.

I just want to be the authentic me :-)

Now it´s also my turn to help other find the direction out of the abyss.

Another thing I love is to read and also write, who knows some today maybe I publish something, but for now it has to grow for a while :-)

Have a wonderful day :-)

This song has haunted me all day. Can´t get it out of my mind *smile*

Fly me to the moon

Have been on healing with a wonderful women, and also gained some more insight.
She is honest and wise and sais what se sees but also she is caring at the same time.

What would I do without her?

Shes my angel :-)

A poem from ShantiMayis book: In our hearts we know.

You seek was is already yours
You travel home
For ever home
East and west
Nort and South
Zenit and Nadir
Unimaginably
Immeasurable
In the simplicity of the everyday
Come home

Love Jessica

I was hiking in the woods today and then I saw a Golden Eagle and a raven. This amazed me indeed :-) I looked them up in the book of "the language of the animals". And this talked straight to my heart.

meditation 2010.01.01

I have been meditating yesterday and this came to me in this calm moment :-)
<3
Together we can performe even bigger miracles.
We have to restore the balance of the earth.
That we can do by helping each other.

Balance between male – female, balance between the religions, poor – rich, science – spirituality and so on.

Respect and try to understand the other persons view of life.
Don´t be scared of the unknown.
We all see things from different perspectives.
Together we can see the true picture of life.
What we give comes back to us – the law of karma and attraction.
<3

Much love from Jessica

laughter and tears

A song that made me cry today it so beautiful.
And life is both laughter and tears. Like a rollercoaster, we just to have hang in there and learn to live life to the fullest.

Heavy on my heart - Anastacia

El condor pasa

Higher - Erik Grönwall

I am

A friend send me this link :

I need you now !!!

Just some reflection

What is love ??

Maybe to treat a person as you wanted to be treated, with love, respect and empathy.
And we have to learn to love ourself first, it always start with yourself.

You can make a person happy just by giving him/her a smile and a friendly word or a hug.
And also talk nice to yourself in the mirror for example ;-)

You can be the change in someone elses life.
And we can also change our own life, when we start to love ourself for who we are.

I have myself had a hard time for a while now and if I hadn´t have my friends around I don´t know how I should move forward.

I needed them, as they may need me one day.
They show me how I can be able to open my heart, and talk about whats troubling me, and they show me another way of looking at this subject.

So appriciate your friends and give them a hug and tell them what they mean to you :-D

Love to all my friends that visiting my blog and to all my other friends.

Quote of the day

” IF WE OURSELVES REMAIN ANGRY AND THEN SING WORLD PEACE, IT HAS LITTLE MEANING.
SO, YOU SEE, FIRST OUR INDIVIDUAL SELF MUST LEARN PEACE.
THIS WE CAN PRACTICE, THEN WE TEACH THE REST OF THE WORLD”
THE DALAI LAMA

What is reiki?

I recieed a question what reiki is?

Here comes an explanation:

Rei, meaning "Universal" and Ki, meaning "Life Force".
Reiki is a hands-on healing technique, which is based on the the idea of accessing the universal life force and channeling it through a reiki practioners body and out their hands into a persons body for the purpose of healing mind, body and spirit.
Reiki is an emmensly simple yet powerful method which can remove blockages and restore the flow of energy around the body.
The spirit of reiki is challenging and rewarding and can lead you into a journey of spiritual exploration and discovery.
It helps release the drama and illusions that we have limited ourselves with.
This energizing force can empower you to feel as an emotional being, to respond to situations creatively, and to act throughout your life as a channel for good.

The effect of reiki is not always immediate or obvious, although for some people it can be dramatic and instant.
Reiki has its own inherent wisdom and acts as a force that gives people what they need rather than what they ask for.
Although reiki is a hands-on form of healing, no maniupulation of the body is involved, and therefore, there are no risks of injuries.
Reiki is suitable for everyone; and can be used successfully in conjunction with other complimentary therapies and healing forms, and with orthodox medical treatments.
Reiki is more than a complementary therapy.
It can also be regarded as a spiritual journey or a life path.
Many people say that the healing and balancing of the body's natural flow of energy creates a sence of openness.
This offers the opportunity to expand one's consciousness, as well as to release long-held stresses and pains.
Reiki is truly one of the most wonderful healing tools present on this planet at this time.
This is important for us now as conditions on our planet are critical.
There are wars, famines, disease, pollution, the destruction of the eco system, crime, poverty and horrible living conditions.
These problems are being experienced by billions of people and are getting worse.
These problems have been caused primarily by the decisions people have made on an individual, local and global basis.

The underlying values and beliefs which govern the decision making processes for the planet are in need of a major revision.
We need to change our values and beliefs so we can move from a fragmented earth to a whole earth, from an earth motivated by fear to an earth motivated by love, from an earth filled with suspicion and conflict to an earth living in trust and cooperation.
Within reiki lies the energy and consciousness necessary to make these changes.

"WE HAVE WHAT WE SEEK. IT IS THERE ALL THE TIME, AND IF WE GIVE IT TIME, IT WILL MAKE ITSELF KNOWN TO US"

What is freedom?

Freedom what is freedom?

Free to express myself without someone labeling me.
Let me express the real me.
Peel the onion peace by peace until I only am the kernel.
Just being me without fear of being judge.

We should not judge each other, instead share both our simularities and our unique gifts :-)

Love Jessica

Quotes of today by Carl Jung

The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed.
Carl Jung

The shoe that fits one person pinches another; there is no recipe for living that suits all cases.
Carl Jung

As far as we can discern, the sole purpose of human existence is to kindle a light in the darkness of mere being.
Carl Jung, "Memories, Dreams, Reflections", 1962

Where love rules, there is no will to power, and where power predominates, love is lacking.
The one is the shadow of the other.
Carl Jung, "On the Psychology of the Unconciousness", 1917