Thoughts of today 2010.05.27

I try to leave the past ... to live in this moment ... and making plans for the future.
But today I will only relax on my free day :-)

thoughts of today 2010.04.21

We all stand in different perspectives and see things from different angles.
We should need a bird perspectvie to see things from above.

What is the truth ? Only different opinions and different believes I should say.

What a crazy world we live in.
All people live in their own truth and believes so I say believe what you want I don´t care anymore.
I know "my" truth that is enough for me.

The problem is we often project our own feelings onto others, that is often a
mistake we do. Listen instead. Two ears and one mouth

Try to see the bigger picture, not from a egoistic view. We all do the best we can from where we coming. We learn all the time.

We need to listen carefully to each other to understand the others point of view. We all have our own truth.

Thoughts 2010.02.24

Saved by the bell (a miracle)

Lately everyhting seems to going my way ... it´s a miracle :-)

I can´t believe it almost, it´s to good to be true.

The last year everything went donwhill for several reasons (both private and work).
Now slowly everything is going better and better.

Not long ago I didn´t know what to do, I was almost turning bankrupt and without a job.
I just couldn´t go back to my "old" work, it made me sick to be there.

I knew I had to follow my heart otherwise my soul would slowly die, I just needed to listen to my heart very carefully.

But with a friends help and the goverment I´m on the right track again.

It ´s like you are swimming in the wrong aquarium, you feel trapped and you don´t know how you can switch it, you need some help to move to the ocean :-)

I was so depressed and sad, and I prayed and the answer was:
*Not to worry, he only tested my faith (very funny *LOL*)
*Just believe in miracles and they will happen.
*Forgive yourself for the mistakes you done, an also forgive thoose who hurt you.
*And also I made a promise but that is a secret for now ;-)

And there are also questions God (or the Source or whoever it is) will not answer he/she just smile back at me, and some I don´t understand yet.
But I hope I will understand soon or maybe I just have to understand that God work in mysterious ways.

Some people around me has believed I´m crazy when I say that I talk to God, they was afraid that I was nuts.
Maybe I should not have told them, could have saved me a lot of trouble.

The funny thing is they say they believe in God (or do they really???).
Now they has accepted it, but can´t understand it.
Here in Sweden many think you are crazy if you talk to God, so let them think so I don´t care anymore.

I also took courage and told the goverment about my situation and they helped me thank God.
So now I´m on my way back to recovery again.

Doing what I love: reiki and massage and spiritual work :-)
I just cross my fingers and hope it can stay so for a while so I can get back on my feet totaly again.

But for now I´m just so happy and feel blessed that a solution came along.

Still there are issues to solve, but I´m sure the stronger I get this will be solved somehow.

Love Jessica

Thoughts of today 2010.02.23 tuesday

I have felt so good about myself recently.

Things are finaly moving or am I moving?
Maybe both :-)

The last year has been one of the toughest for me in many many years.
Maybe I will explain one day, it´s kind of complicated.

For one thing I have changed my career from networkengineer to work with reiki & massage and spirituality.

I have looked deep into myself and found out what my heart wants and I´m taking step by step to achieve it.

I have started with doing reiki & massage in a goverment project at my friends company,
and soon I will also start my own buisness and stand on my two own feats.

It´s so exciting and fun.

Also been starting working with spirituality in different ways.
So much is happening right know and it feels great :-)

At first I thought I was a little crazy and felt very alone, because in Sweden it is not so common to be working with spirituality but I hope that will change :-)

Now I have found several friends that are in the same way, and it is so much fun to discuss things and work together.
So what if some think I´m crazy, I will not care about thoose people, just focus on what I need to do.

I just want to be the authentic me :-)

Now it´s also my turn to help other find the direction out of the abyss.

Another thing I love is to read and also write, who knows some today maybe I publish something, but for now it has to grow for a while :-)

Have a wonderful day :-)

An awakening day

Today was a really awakening day for me !!
I have thought for a while now that I cannot do anything and that I´m useless in several ways.
But today I helped a friend that are going through a divorce and she was so thankful that I could help her and we talked about stuff that really matters.
And she encouraged me to start my buisness right away, she said that I can help a lot of people, no doubt about it.I really needed to hear that right now when my self esteem was low.

It´s so strange that we can be both strong and weak at the same time.We really need to help each other in this world, reach out a hand to help our neigbour.We all need a hand when we are in the dark to be able to reach the light.
We are all ONE !!!

My path

How hard it is to follow your heart when the people closest to you dont agree with your path. They want you to take the safe path, but I can´t go on on the safe path anymore, it will cost to much.
My soul will slowly die if I continue on the safe path.
So I will pray to God and the angels to help me on my "new" path.
And I will remember that it always look darkest before dawn.
From now on I have to put my trust in faith and continue.

Reflection about what happened in March

Now some time have passed since I ended up in hospital because of stress in March.

I recieved a friend request in Facebook from a person that called himself Slayer Al Saffah
( the butcher profet) just days before I was going to meet Paulo and other readers in Paris.

And I became so afraid that my brain didn´t know what was real or not.
I couldn´t sleep for several days and that made me ill.

Now I have recovered from this and I hope I never going to be so afraid again.

Now I just take day by day and trying to se the beauty in every day life, like enjoying watching a butterfly, taking a break and just sit in the sun.
Enjoying the moment to the fullest.

Maybe I get a new chance to go to Paris and meet my favourite aouthor.
But if I don´t get another chance I will anyway enjoy my everyday life and live life to the fullest.

I don´t want to get older and regret the things I didn´t do.

I want to take the chance when it comes, and if rocks comes in the way I will try the hardest I can to remove them.
And if they are to big to move I will try to find another way to get around it.

Love and light
Jessica

Thoughts about reincarnation

Posted in Your Space in my Blog (Paulo Coelho)

A quote from my blog again ;-)
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The life you have led doesn’t need to be the only life you have.
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I believe in reincarnation that we have lived several lifes here at Earth.
I have made regression and remembered several lifes, and a friend of mine also did a regression.
And we had lived several lifes together, and she could fill in things from my life.
Very strange, but I believe in it.
What do you believe ?

Love Jessica

Thoughts of today 090510

Sorry if I bring anyone down but I´m kind of down and tired right now.
Most of being tired.
Maybe because of a an allergy I have of some spring pollen.

Do anyone have a quick fix for become more alert & alive?

I have tried a special health food but no result yet :-(

I want to be full of life like the spring, why this fatigue?

Thoughts of today 090505

Today I was sad for a reason (I don´t tell you about right now), and the weather didn´t do it any better.
I want to be happy so why am I sad???
I think I have pushed it down for a while so when the cup is full it runs over.

Now I feel better again, after picking up my kids from school.
I want to live life to the fullest so why does the sadness come when I don´t want it to come ??
I couldn´t control my feelings, can we ever control them??
Because when the cup is full, is full.

From a very emotional Jessica today

Thoughts of today 090429

How fast my emotions can change ....

From feeling so alone and abandon in the morning, to feel abundance and joy in the evening.

That make me think that we people are not an island.
We need other people to feel abundance, if we share we feel even more joy and abundance.

They key is sharing once again.

One friend I met in the middle of the day.
We ate lunch together and talked about everything between earth and heaven.
I helped her to peal shrimps to a dish for her sons birthday party.

Another friend I met in the evening.
We meditated and practice the paranormal such as tarot cards.

I´m blessed to have this wonderful friends, what should I do without them ;-)

I also need both the physical world and the spiritual world.

We are all .... body, spirit and soul.

We need to see things from different angles, and our friends can help us with that.
The circle of friends :-)

Love Jessica

Thoughts of today 090427

Hmmm ...... what is my thoughts today *LOL*

Today I have been out in the woods as usual with my dog "Bella" and it was 20 celcius degrees, Wonderful with spring the flowers ans all the butterflies!!!

But I also was very tired, because I´m allergic to some treas and their pollen ;-)

I have also decided that I will do a trip somewhere in the soon future with my family, to change the surroundings for a while and get some new insights :-)

Hugs from Jessica

Frustration

I feel so frustrated today,
I want to do so much, but I´m still tired from me living on adrenaline for some weaks.
Just patience and persistance right know.
Sooo boring !!!
I want something to happen in the right direction right now.
Tired of waiting for the right moment again.
Can someone help me please …
How can I found the strenght to carrie on when I feel down and tired???
I want to open my own buisness now, write a book now, live now !!!I have so much to give, but where should I start ???
Why do I have a hard time to do one thing at a time, I have 0 or 10 things going on.
Maybe I need to learn hiw I can take one thing at a time?
Someone has a good idea how to learn that?

Love and hug Jessica

Peculiar ways of life

I´m right know feeling a little confused about my situation, but I know everything is going to turn out well in the future.

I don´t really know what is going to happen in my life right know.
I trust that God will help me with signs and that I have the courage to follow them.

I´m not giving up, I raise myself up when I fall and continue my journey of life.
And the journey itself is really exiting.
Maybe too exiciting sometimes.
Right now I rest after being scared of a situation because I thought that someone was after me.

I still don´t know what this persons wanted me, maybe just be a friend?
But I found it peculiar that he called himself Slayer al Saffah (the slaughter profet).
Just some days before I was going to Paris to Paulos St Jospehs day party.
I became scared and paralyzed, wanted to protect my family in the first place.

Now I don´t care anymore, I can´t going around being afraid anymore, I trust that God
(the Source) gives me a solution how I can contionue my journey with faith and courage.

Love Jessica

How I feel today

How I feel today …
Sorry …it´s not my meaning to bring you down, but I have to open my heart and speak my truth.
I´m forbidden to talk about my vision at home and at the hospital:-(
What can I do …run away from it all?
I wish that today !!!
And in the same time I sat alone outside in the springsun, and enjoyed the moment.
I still have faith, but it seems out of reach right now.
So I do what I can do and rest a bit.

Love Jessica

Thoughts of today

The fight is always worth to fight.

But I really really need allies which I can speak about my visions.

I feel kind of alone right now, my allies are at places I can´t reach right now.
So what should I do??
I´m forbidden to talk about the paranormal at home and at the hospital, and I feel sooo sad.
I need to speak to someone who can understand me and what should do about it.

Love Jessica

About Allies from Paulo Coelhos blog

The importance of allies - Part 1
Published
by
Paulo Coelho
on April 2, 2009

The warrior of light who does not share with others the happiness of his choices will never come to know his own qualities and shortcomings.
So before you start anything, find allies – people who are interested in what you are doing.
I am not saying “Find other warriors of light.”I am saying: “
Find people with different skills, because a warrior’s fight for his dream is no different from any other path that is followed with enthusiasm.”

Your allies will not necessarily be those people that everyone looks at in admiration and says: “there is nobody better.”
Much to the contrary, they are people who are not afraid of making mistakes, so they make lots of mistakes.
That is why what they do is not always praised or acknowledged.
Yet this is the type of person that changes the world and after many a mistake manages to get something right that will make all the difference to their community.
Allies are people who cannot hang around waiting for things to happen and later decide on the best attitude to take: they decide as they go along, even knowing that this type of behavior is very risky.
Living with allies is important for a warrior of light; together, they all understand that before choosing the objective they are free to change their mind.
But after the objective has been decided upon, they focus only on the steps they have to take. And they think as they go along: “each step requires a lot of effort, but it’s worth the risk, it’s worth betting one’s very life.
”The best allies are those that do not think like most people.
That is why, when looking for companions to share the enthusiasm of the dream, it is important to believe in intuition and pay no attention to others’ comments.
Most human beings always judge others using their own limitations as the model – and sometimes the opinion of the majority is full of prejudice and fear.

Join all those who experiment, take risks, fall, get hurt and then take risks again. Stay away from those who affirm truths, who criticize those that do not think like they do, who have never taken a step without being sure that they would be respected for that, and who prefer the comfort of certainty to the tension of doubt.
Join those who expose themselves and are not afraid of being vulnerable:
these watch what their neighbor is doing, not to judge him but rather to admire him for his dedication and courage.

Jessica
April 2, 2009 at 12:26 pm
Through this episode with my collpas,I now know which are my true allies.
So me breaking down was good so I could know which are my true allies.
Like the knights sais:One for all, All for one !!!
I now know who I can trust and we stand beside each other and suppport and help each other.

There are not many yet, but I´m in search of allies so we can do something amazing togehter ;-)

I still believe in miracles, God works in mysterious ways *LOL*
Love and lightJessica

There is a meaning why I go thrue theese things

I can see a meaning to me being in the hospital, the people here have learned me a lot of things.
That it is normal people only having too much so they need to sort things out before moving on.

We all need to support each other in the circle of friends.
I also had a wonderful moment with my parents visiting me today.

We sat down on a bench and we listned to the birds singing,and sitting in the sun and both my heart and my face was thankful for the sun.

No sun, no life on earth … as simple as that ;-)

Love & light Jessica

Bird in the cage

I´m tired of being like a bird in the cage.
I want to learn to fly now.
I´m ready !!!!!