God has put something noble and good into every heart his hand has created. So while living on earth we must always remember to learn from yesterday, live for today, and hope for tomorrow because time will only show what has mattered throughout our journey.

Reflection about the past year

I have been thinking a lot lately.
A lot of reflection :-)

Seems like I have learned a lot of lesson this past year, so what happened to me seem to be a bleesing in disguise.

I have learned to be even more humble and don´t take life for granted.

There are both small and big miracles, for a start is a miracle am still alive I have meet death more then once in my life and survived.

I will tell you more about that later on, maybe in a book ;-)

Even though it gave me a trauma, I´m very happy to be alive :-)

Another thing I´ve learned is when you show your sad is not a weakness is a strenght that you are able to show your true emotions.
Also being able to ask for help when you need it is strenght not a weakness.

How can others help you if you seem to be OK on the outside and hiding your emotions on the inside?
Not all people have the awarness yet to see when something is wrong, or is it me that was so good at hiding my emotions behind a wall?

Now I can help people even better when I have been through a lot myself, when you been at the bottom and can´t find a solution, when everything seem so dark.

I didn´t gave up my hope totally, only for a brief period.

Now I can see and feel the light again even though it can be hard sometimes, but I will never give up hope again.
Now I know I have angels and God by my side, I´m convinced about that.

Love Jessica

Thoughts 2010.02.24

Saved by the bell (a miracle)

Lately everyhting seems to going my way ... it´s a miracle :-)

I can´t believe it almost, it´s to good to be true.

The last year everything went donwhill for several reasons (both private and work).
Now slowly everything is going better and better.

Not long ago I didn´t know what to do, I was almost turning bankrupt and without a job.
I just couldn´t go back to my "old" work, it made me sick to be there.

I knew I had to follow my heart otherwise my soul would slowly die, I just needed to listen to my heart very carefully.

But with a friends help and the goverment I´m on the right track again.

It ´s like you are swimming in the wrong aquarium, you feel trapped and you don´t know how you can switch it, you need some help to move to the ocean :-)

I was so depressed and sad, and I prayed and the answer was:
*Not to worry, he only tested my faith (very funny *LOL*)
*Just believe in miracles and they will happen.
*Forgive yourself for the mistakes you done, an also forgive thoose who hurt you.
*And also I made a promise but that is a secret for now ;-)

And there are also questions God (or the Source or whoever it is) will not answer he/she just smile back at me, and some I don´t understand yet.
But I hope I will understand soon or maybe I just have to understand that God work in mysterious ways.

Some people around me has believed I´m crazy when I say that I talk to God, they was afraid that I was nuts.
Maybe I should not have told them, could have saved me a lot of trouble.

The funny thing is they say they believe in God (or do they really???).
Now they has accepted it, but can´t understand it.
Here in Sweden many think you are crazy if you talk to God, so let them think so I don´t care anymore.

I also took courage and told the goverment about my situation and they helped me thank God.
So now I´m on my way back to recovery again.

Doing what I love: reiki and massage and spiritual work :-)
I just cross my fingers and hope it can stay so for a while so I can get back on my feet totaly again.

But for now I´m just so happy and feel blessed that a solution came along.

Still there are issues to solve, but I´m sure the stronger I get this will be solved somehow.

Love Jessica

The flower of faith, the compass flower :-)

A wonderful Cinderella story

Never give up your dream :-)

meditation 2010.01.01

I have been meditating yesterday and this came to me in this calm moment :-)
<3
Together we can performe even bigger miracles.
We have to restore the balance of the earth.
That we can do by helping each other.

Balance between male – female, balance between the religions, poor – rich, science – spirituality and so on.

Respect and try to understand the other persons view of life.
Don´t be scared of the unknown.
We all see things from different perspectives.
Together we can see the true picture of life.
What we give comes back to us – the law of karma and attraction.
<3

Much love from Jessica

We weren´t born to follow

What do I do when I feel trapped in a corner?

Whatever I do in this situation is hurting someone.

I don´t want anyone to hurt, but I can´t go on living a life where I do not listen to my heart.

I want to be accpeted for who I am.

I don´t want to play a role of someone else to satisfie another person.

I hope for a miracle in this situation.

Love and light
Jessica

hope once again

I begin to have hope once again that everything is going to be OK in the end. I have had a hard time but I can now see the light in the tunnel. But it feels it too good to be true somehow. But I still hope for a miracle it´s kind of shaky right now.
I have recently started to work with help from a goverment project. Not much money, but I can test my dreamjob which is doing reiki and massage and help people as I myself have been helped in different ways.
This work is going to last until march and after that I will see if I can open up my own buisness.
Otherwise I have to find another work on part time so I still can continue my dream.
I will not give up !!!

We can make a difference in someone elses life even if we don´t realize it sometimes.

Take care !!!

Love Jessica

Return to life

Today is a big day in my life.
I have been very down lately because I have felt trapped by circumstances that I couldn´t do anything about.
But now the luck has returned, it´s a miracle.

I can only say Halleluja !!!!

Email from Neale 090910

On this day of your life, Jessica, I believe God wants you to know...
....that it's okay to go ahead and take a risk.

There's no guarantee that everything will turn out exactly
the way you want it to, but there IS a guarantee that it
cannot possibly do so if you are afraid to even take the
chance.

"Nothing ventured, nothing gained" is not just a nifty
old-time saying. It's wisdom. Listen to it.

You know exactly why you received this message today.

Reflection about what happened in March

Now some time have passed since I ended up in hospital because of stress in March.

I recieved a friend request in Facebook from a person that called himself Slayer Al Saffah
( the butcher profet) just days before I was going to meet Paulo and other readers in Paris.

And I became so afraid that my brain didn´t know what was real or not.
I couldn´t sleep for several days and that made me ill.

Now I have recovered from this and I hope I never going to be so afraid again.

Now I just take day by day and trying to se the beauty in every day life, like enjoying watching a butterfly, taking a break and just sit in the sun.
Enjoying the moment to the fullest.

Maybe I get a new chance to go to Paris and meet my favourite aouthor.
But if I don´t get another chance I will anyway enjoy my everyday life and live life to the fullest.

I don´t want to get older and regret the things I didn´t do.

I want to take the chance when it comes, and if rocks comes in the way I will try the hardest I can to remove them.
And if they are to big to move I will try to find another way to get around it.

Love and light
Jessica

Just some reflections

I´m so tired right know.
I need to rest and feel which path I need to go now.
Some people around me try to make me abandon my true path.
But I have decide I need to walk it even if some disagree and think I´m crazy.
They can think what they want, it most about themself, that they don´t have the courage to walk the narrowest path.
It´s my life and I need to follow my heart step by step, and go on even when I fall.
Otherwise my soul is going to be a zombie and that I can´t let happen.

Love and hugs from Jessica

How I feel today

How I feel today …
Sorry …it´s not my meaning to bring you down, but I have to open my heart and speak my truth.
I´m forbidden to talk about my vision at home and at the hospital:-(
What can I do …run away from it all?
I wish that today !!!
And in the same time I sat alone outside in the springsun, and enjoyed the moment.
I still have faith, but it seems out of reach right now.
So I do what I can do and rest a bit.

Love Jessica

Thoughts of today

The fight is always worth to fight.

But I really really need allies which I can speak about my visions.

I feel kind of alone right now, my allies are at places I can´t reach right now.
So what should I do??
I´m forbidden to talk about the paranormal at home and at the hospital, and I feel sooo sad.
I need to speak to someone who can understand me and what should do about it.

Love Jessica

Song of today

One of my favorite .....
A million candles burning - Martin Stenmarck

Song of today You´re not alone

Bird in the cage

I´m tired of being like a bird in the cage.
I want to learn to fly now.
I´m ready !!!!!

Island in the stream

Baby, when I met you there was peace unknown
I set out to get you with a fine tooth comb
I was soft inside, there was somethin going on
You do something to me that I cant explain
Hold me closer and I feel no pain

Every beat of my heart
We got somethin goin on
Tender love is blind
It requires a dedication

All this love we feel
Needs no conversation
We ride it together, ah-ah
Makin love with each other, ah-ah

Islands in the stream
That is what we are
No one in-between
How can we be wrong
Sail away with me to another world
And we rely on each other, ah-ah
From one lover to another, ah-ah

I cant live without you if the love was gone
Everything is nothin if you got no one
And you did walk in tonight
Slowly loosen sight of the real thing

But that wont happen to us and we got no doubt
Too deep in love and we got no way out
And the message is clear
This could be the year for the real thing

No more will you cry
Baby, I will hurt you never
We start and end as one, in love forever
We can ride it together, ah-ah
Makin love with each other, ah-ah

Sail away
Oh, come sail away with me

Song of today

Star Pilots - Higher