Thoughts 2010.02.24

Saved by the bell (a miracle)

Lately everyhting seems to going my way ... it´s a miracle :-)

I can´t believe it almost, it´s to good to be true.

The last year everything went donwhill for several reasons (both private and work).
Now slowly everything is going better and better.

Not long ago I didn´t know what to do, I was almost turning bankrupt and without a job.
I just couldn´t go back to my "old" work, it made me sick to be there.

I knew I had to follow my heart otherwise my soul would slowly die, I just needed to listen to my heart very carefully.

But with a friends help and the goverment I´m on the right track again.

It ´s like you are swimming in the wrong aquarium, you feel trapped and you don´t know how you can switch it, you need some help to move to the ocean :-)

I was so depressed and sad, and I prayed and the answer was:
*Not to worry, he only tested my faith (very funny *LOL*)
*Just believe in miracles and they will happen.
*Forgive yourself for the mistakes you done, an also forgive thoose who hurt you.
*And also I made a promise but that is a secret for now ;-)

And there are also questions God (or the Source or whoever it is) will not answer he/she just smile back at me, and some I don´t understand yet.
But I hope I will understand soon or maybe I just have to understand that God work in mysterious ways.

Some people around me has believed I´m crazy when I say that I talk to God, they was afraid that I was nuts.
Maybe I should not have told them, could have saved me a lot of trouble.

The funny thing is they say they believe in God (or do they really???).
Now they has accepted it, but can´t understand it.
Here in Sweden many think you are crazy if you talk to God, so let them think so I don´t care anymore.

I also took courage and told the goverment about my situation and they helped me thank God.
So now I´m on my way back to recovery again.

Doing what I love: reiki and massage and spiritual work :-)
I just cross my fingers and hope it can stay so for a while so I can get back on my feet totaly again.

But for now I´m just so happy and feel blessed that a solution came along.

Still there are issues to solve, but I´m sure the stronger I get this will be solved somehow.

Love Jessica

The flower of faith, the compass flower :-)

Thoughts of today 2010.02.23 tuesday

I have felt so good about myself recently.

Things are finaly moving or am I moving?
Maybe both :-)

The last year has been one of the toughest for me in many many years.
Maybe I will explain one day, it´s kind of complicated.

For one thing I have changed my career from networkengineer to work with reiki & massage and spirituality.

I have looked deep into myself and found out what my heart wants and I´m taking step by step to achieve it.

I have started with doing reiki & massage in a goverment project at my friends company,
and soon I will also start my own buisness and stand on my two own feats.

It´s so exciting and fun.

Also been starting working with spirituality in different ways.
So much is happening right know and it feels great :-)

At first I thought I was a little crazy and felt very alone, because in Sweden it is not so common to be working with spirituality but I hope that will change :-)

Now I have found several friends that are in the same way, and it is so much fun to discuss things and work together.
So what if some think I´m crazy, I will not care about thoose people, just focus on what I need to do.

I just want to be the authentic me :-)

Now it´s also my turn to help other find the direction out of the abyss.

Another thing I love is to read and also write, who knows some today maybe I publish something, but for now it has to grow for a while :-)

Have a wonderful day :-)

There are some things in life that you are not meant to be.
Don't waste your time and tears trying to be them.
Reach for the things you are meant to be, and you will reach your destiny.

Humankind has not woven the web of life.
We are but one thread within it.
Whatever we do to the web, we do to ourselves.
All things are bound together.
All things connect.

Chief Seattle, 1854

Honor the sacred.
Honor the Earth, our Mother.
Honor the Elders.
Honor all with whom we
share the Earth:-
Four-leggeds, two-leggeds,
winged ones,
Swimmers, crawlers,
plant and rock people.
Walk in balance and beauty.

Native American Elder

(from http://www.sapphyr.net/natam/quotes-nativeamerican.htm)

A wonderful Cinderella story

Never give up your dream :-)